what a day...what a week... what a life...

I am not sure how personal I should get in my blogs. I try to keep it conservative because of the different people who read this. But I have decided maybe I should just let go and let people learn a little more about me. I guess I have always been kind of private and not liked to talk about personal feelings so much in this blog. But it doesn't feel natural... so anyway... Maybe I should just open up... at least some of my friends think I should...

Today and this week have been hell... I am burned out on just about everything...hehe. I am positive of coarse but just kind of burned out... My secretary pretty much keeps me alive everyday. She is Japanese and from Japan. Much older than me but really works hard for me and makes sure I am ok everyday. She keeps the fridge in the office full of diet coke for me and knows when I am stressed. She always brings me a coke and some chocolate or something and makes me smile. I have never had anyone take care of me the way she does at work. So basically many times she is the bright spot of the day. I learned I have to indeed go to Japan next week for some urgent meetings. I am going to be dead. Between these meetings and drinking I think I will completely breakdown when I get back. I will leave a couple days early and go to Hokkaido. Hokkaido is another story but not a good one...but it will be good to just eat some good food and relax for a day before I go to hell again. But I am glad I can have these face to face meetings eventhough they are tough and stressful sometimes... life is good.... it could always be worse for everyone... thats for sure!